That super random dream about falling inlove with someone and feeling awkward after seeing him the next day. Weirdo.
A humble heart that easily forgives. Inshaa Allah! :)
Some people don’t get it when I talk… they always think that I have a bad intention or something.
You have no idea as to what kind of MONSTER you have planted in my poor innocent heart. But I’m never gonna let you win… You may have succeeded in your first move but I’m never gonna let this little sparks turn into fire. Never ever!


Each of you is the mirror of his brother, so if he sees any fault in him he should wipe it away.
Al-Tirmidhi, Hadith 1286

Narrated Abu Huraira:

The Prophet said,

"Beware of suspicion, for suspicion is the worst of false tales; and do not look for the others’ faults and do not spy, and do not be jealous of one another, and do not desert (cut your relation with) one another, and do not hate one another; and O Allah’s worshipers! Be brothers (as Allah has ordered you)!"

Sahih Al Bukhari, Vol. 8 Number 90 

Narrated Abu Huraira:

Allah’s Apostle said,

"Beware of suspicion, for it is the worst of false tales and don’t look for the other’s faults and don’t spy and don’t hate each other, and don’t desert (cut your relations with) one another. O Allah’s slaves, be brothers!"

Sahih Al Bukhari, Vol. 8 Number 717 

Narrated AbuBarzah al-Aslami:

The Prophet (peace be upon him) said:

"O community of people, who believed by their tongue, and belief did not enter their hearts, do not back-bite Muslims, and do not search for their faults, for if anyone searches for their faults, Allah will search for his fault, and if Allah searches for the fault of anyone, He disgraces him in his house."

Sunan of Abu Dawood, Number 2283 

The Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) said:

“He who sees something which should be kept hidden and conceals it will be like one who has brought to life a girl buried alive.”

(a pre-Islamic practice)

Sunan of Abu-Dawood, Hadith 2292 
Forgiving Takes Time

Forgiveness was never that hard for me to give. No matter how insincere the person who asks for it, I never for once hesitated to let off. Not until last Monday’s incident. My “forgive and forget” principle has become easier said than done.

On that gloomy Monday afternoon, I thought after being able to clear out all her false accusations about me, after I’m able to let out all my ill-feelings that I hid the whole day and after I heard her utter the word “maa’af” (sorry), I will be at ease. But I was wrong…

The next day, when I went to school and saw all the curious faces our classmates made after seeing me smile (pretending as if nothing happened), all the harsh words and maltreatment she did to me hark back to my mind. Then I saw her at the back row, she smiled at me and so as I… and it felt awkward. I sat down at the front seat and never dared to look at her direction again. 

Just this afternoon, while waiting for our Professor to come, she went to where I sat, to be continued…